Charlotte Ferro is about to jump.
Yet nothing ruins a perfectly good suicide attempt worse than a handsome do-gooder. After William O’Reilly convinces her to take one last ride with him, Charlotte finds herself forgetting about her own problems and enjoying a world of which she never dreamed.
Now addicted to the rush of fast cars and cool criminals, Charlotte finds herself leaning less towards the ledge and more toward the arms of her savior. But with reasons of his own for keeping Charlotte safe from herself, William is reluctant to involve her in his criminal undertakings. Will his career choice keep them apart? Will Charlotte’s painful past?
**Mature Content Warning** Recommended for ages 17+ due to language and sexual content.
I have to admit that the beginning of this book is difficult to read, but the 95% that follows is so good, you’ll be happy you stuck with it. The main character, Lottie, has decided to end her life and is preparing to follow through the act. She has done research on the how and when and where -she even explains the why. It is hard to get your mind around the fact that this character you don’t even know yet has painstakingly planned and earnestly anticipates her suicide. The first half of the first chapter is very disturbing, and as soon as you are tempted to stop reading and write her off (much like she is planning to do to herself), something happens that gives Lottie (and the reader) a much better story.
William drives by just in time to offer Lottie help. He assumes she is stranded – late at night – on a bridge – all alone, but quickly gathers there is more to the situation than meets the eye. He is immediately invested in her well being, and William’s willingness to get involved marks the beginning of Lottie’s re-entry to the world around her. She doesn’t want the attention at first, but she tolerates his text messages and home visits. It is William’s persistent communication and interaction that helps her feel again. Their conversations are witty, their adventures are unique, and their relationship is as authentic as anything you’ll read in NA today.
The writing is excellent. Lottie is beautifully depicted as she moves from utter desperation to indifferent participation to manic behavior. Once she starts to feel again, she finds herself craving joy and exhilaration. William is the cornerstone of her new outlook, and she calls him her “human anti-depressant.” That unconditional support blossoms to mutual friendship, with the possibility of more. The author does a fantastic job of taking readers along for ride from despair to hope. And as hard as it is to feel Lottie’s depression in the beginning, it is equally wonderful to feel her emerge from that darkness.
I LOVED the unexpected elements of this book – and there were many: the dark beginning, William’s hobby (and job… and friends… and backstory), the one liners, the places they go and the things they do – I am being vague on purpose. You need to read Breakdown and take the ride for yourself. I sincerely look forward to reading more from this author. – kris